Amar Jivan by Srila Bhaktivinode Thakura, from the purport of Srila A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada
Amara jivana sada pape rata nahiko punyera lesa.
“My life is always engaged in sinful activities, and if you try to find out, you will not find even a trace of pious activities — only sinful activities.”
parereudvega, diyachi ye koto,diyachi jivere klesa:
“I am always inclined to give trouble to other living entities. That is my business. I want to see that others are suffering, and then I enjoy.”
Nija sukha lagi’, pape nahidori:
“For my personal sense gratification, I accept any kind of sinful activity.”
Daya-hina svartha-paro:
“I am not at all merciful, and I see only to my personal interest.”
Para-sukhe duhkhi, sada mithya-bhasi:
“As such, when others are suffering I become very happy, and I am always speaking lies. Even for ordinary things I am accustomed to speaking lies.
Para-duhkha sukha-karo:
“And if someone is suffering, that is very pleasant to me.”
Asesa kamana, hrdi majhe mora:
“I have got lots of desires within my heart, and I am always angry and falsely prestigious, always puffed up with false pride.”
Mada-matta sada visaye mohita:
“I am captivated by subject matters of sense gratification, and I am almost crazy.”
Himsa-garva vibhusana:
“My ornaments are enviousness and false pride.”
Nidralasya hata,sukarye virata:
“I am conquered by sleep and laziness, and I am always averse to pious activities.”
Akarye udyogi ami:
“And I am very enthusiastic to perform impious activities.”
Pratistha lagiya sathya-acarana:
“I always cheat others for my prestige.”
Lobha-hata sada kami:
“I am conquered by greediness and always lusty.”
E heno durjana saj-jana-varjit a:
“I am so fallen, and I have no association with devotees.”
Aparadhi nirantara:
“I am an offender always.
Subha-karya-sun ya:
“In my life there is not a bit of auspicious activity”;
sadanartha manah:
“and my mind is always attracted by something mischievous.”
Nana duhkhe jara jara:
“Therefore, at the fag end of my life I am almost invalid by all such sufferings.”
Bardhakye ekhona upaya-vihina:
“Now in my old age I have no alternative”;
ta’te dina akincana:
“therefore by force I have now become very humble and meek.”
Bhakativinoda prabhura carane, kore duhkha nivedana:
“Thus Bhaktivinoda Thakura is offering his sad statement of his life’s activities at the lotus feet of the Supreme Lord
The Sad Statement of My Life’s Activities
BY: SRI VRINDAVAN DAS
Sep 04, 2016 — SRIDHAM MAYAPUR (SUN) —
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